They Say

They say it’s a hole

Something missing inside

Something that needs fixing

Something I cannot hide

They tell me techniques

To fix my heart

But there’s so much more that needs fixing

I don’t know where to start

I just want to forget

But they won’t let me

They say I have to deal with it

I can’t just let it be

But I can’t do it alone

I need someone by my side

I may seem strong

My weakness I’ve learned to hide

Please help me lord

Help me get through

This is my prayer

I’m asking of you

Normal

Why can’t we go back

To the way things used to be

Remain as one unit

As one strong family

I want mom to stop screaming

When there is no need to be upset

She needs to learn to let go

Realize she doesn’t need to fret

I want Renee to be happy

She’s in her teenage years

She shouldn’t have to deal with this

I wish I could dry her tears

But most of all

I want dad to care

Not just to brush us off

It’s not really fair

Why can’t we go back

To the way things used to be

Remain as one unit

As one strong family

Don’t Worry J

Don’t worry about what if’s

He’ll love you either way

Don’t worry about what’s happened

Tomorrow is a new day

Don’t worry your head

With silly thoughts

Don’t worry yourself

With things so easily forgot

Don’t worry about the future

Concentrate on right now

Don’t worry about what could become

That will only lead to wondering how

I hope this poem has brightened your day

Of course that was my plan

Always remember I am here

To help you anyway I can

written: 10/2004

The House of Boring

This is the house of boring

Everyone is welcome, come on in

For this is the house of boring

Where everyone is bored as sin

This is the house of boring

Open twenty-four hours a day

For this is the house of boring

Hope you enjoy your stay

written: 04/2001

Thoughts

I want to say something

But I’m not quite sure what

I think about it all the time

However, I’m afraid I’m in a rut

Your subliminal messages

Have got me so confused

I’ve already been hurt before

My heart has sure been abused

I wish just for once

You would take the initiative

It seems I’m always the one

I don’t have much more to give

You always seem to be

There when I need a friend

But if I should say something

I fear that would be the end

I’ve seen it happen

Already once before

For there are so many girls

You’ve had to kick out your door

So if you understand

What this poem has to say

Please act upon it

Don’t leave it for another day

written: 10/2004